Rigidify

scratching your head
nervous energy
dried out shower deprived skin
starring into whiteness
pen held ready
should any inspiration flow
into the void

high school desk
posed hand
the other drawing it
in HB pencil
perhaps you'll draw
a breast underneath
closest you'll get
to the real thing

you notice them
girls in your class
girls on the bus

aware you can not stare
you plan glances
an erotic zone sniper
lining up future targets

mail order catalog magazines
JC Penny and Avon come calling
underwear ad and swimsuit models
scanned for protruding nipples
beneath cloth covered swollen breasts
and price tags

rain soaked paper magazines
with mud splotches
found underneath bushes
added to under mattress
fantasy girl collection

flipping through photos
searching for incision scars
where they've stuffed the implant
can't get off to that
knowing there'd be no bounce
from pelvic motion transfer
if you really got inside

paralyzed feelings
petrified smile on silicon puffed lips
money making body modification
distortions to match
inflated male instincts

fire engine red lips
tongue hairy male thigh skin
no face to see so
it may as well be you
heavy mascara eyes
focused on a camera
puppet on a string
mental marionette makes
you want to pull her strings
when you can only pull
on yourself


©polarpaul 2006